QB

 啱啱先發現，魔法少女小圓嗰隻嘢叫 "Incubator"，某程度上都係取名自 Incubi (夢魔).....

靈感

王德峰 講「靈感」

https://youtu.be/D0tBCoaESI0?si=xChJf3H-41tzp8TZ&t=3385 

佢講嘅「靈感過程」同我個「痾屎論」基本上係一樣。有得痾就點都要痾，冇得痾係勉強唔到嘅。（話說，我讀大學嗰陣摸索緊自己同寫作靈感嘅連繫，都係啲功課交唔出嘅原因之一⋯）

基本上佢講嘅現像喺我身上係全中，連啲「睇返自己寫嘅文，好似欣賞其他人嘅作品咁欣賞」嘅過程都係一樣 :D 

「只有经过灵感阶段的作品，才是真正的艺术作品」 - 王德峰

自從我真正理解咩係「靈感」之後我都係好強烈咁感受到呢個事實。其實我會更進一步講，所有藝術都係通靈過程嘅產物。

講多幾句禪宗

禪宗出名搞爛gag，由壇經開始已經係咁。「猶欠篩在」、「迷時師度。悟了自度」、「能者得之」 etc. 雖然我早前話有可能係傳承自廣州人自古以來就係咁詼諧鍾意搞gag，但我理解係仲有其他原由。

第一，係呢啲gag語帶雙關，關乎修行人必須意識到嘅世界嘅層次，或者用英文講會更加容易表達：layers of simulation。壇經講「見自性」，「自性」係咩嚟？乜人唔係由肉身構成咩？由於古代冇 virtual machine 嘅概念，呢樣嘢比較難講 (要到 Alan Turing 講 (Universal) Turing Machine 呢個概念先至真正成形)，我哋比較好彩有多啲 vocabulary 用。

肉身同物理世界係一層 layer ，呢層 layer 自然係存在嘅，但依禪宗所言唔係「本性」(original sing) 嚟，本性不生不滅，所以一定係物理世界以外嘅嘢嚟，係另一層 layer 嘅嘢。 既然「我」有多個 layer ，咁講嘢嗰陣，究竟係同邊個「我」或邊個「你」講呢？ 呢個係一個大問題。 語帶雙關嘅玩法，就係嘗試喺人話嘅限制之下，講一啲多個 layer 都 make sense 嘅說話。此其一。

第二，修行過嘅人應該都感受過其實啲靈體好多都好搞笑。有時純粹係駁到高我嗰陣，啲說話同文字會變得搞笑⋯ 話說禪宗咁鍾意玩偈，五祖要門徒作偈決定衣缽傳人，其實都係接駁高我嘅試練嚟。所以點解五祖話「不得遲滯。思量即不中用。見性之人。言下須見。」

"Nine heavens"

喺 The Rememberer 入面，Matias De Stefano 多次提到 "Nine heavens" (英譯) 嘅概念，又講咗幾次 "nine dimensions"。

咁啱中華道家都係講「九天」、「九重天」，呢個巧合又真係幾耐人尋味。

我真係極度懷疑道家嘅傳承真係遠古西方。又係時候提返個「真」字⋯

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另外佢講  HAM HET HUM 三個呼吸聲 (宇宙渾元呼吸)，同「哼哈」好似係同一樣嘢嚟。「哼哈」最出名係「哼哈二將」，但查返道家好似有個叫「哼哈二氣」嘅嘢。

所以啲巧合真係⋯

The Speed of Light in Giza

Today I learned

Latitude of the Great Pyramid of Giza ~= 29.9792458° N (within reasonable error bars)

Whereas speed of light ~= 299,792,458 m/s

It's just a coincidence.

As to the claim that the meter was invented relatively recently, its original definition was one ten-millionth of the distance from the equator to the North Pole, so in theory peoples from other cultures could have used a similar definition with similar values.

The coincidence is still very very uncanny.

Seering

The most difficult thing I probably have to learn in the coming years is to let go of the perceived injustice of being shunned for decades for even being associated with it, until people realize the truth and congratulate themselves for the amazing revelation that nobody ever thought about before, ever.

It's not the shunning per se, perhaps just the loneliness.

The life plan of a prophet. Hah.

粑粑肉

睇王剛做川菜「粑粑肉」幾次

忽然發現其實咪就係午餐肉嚟

Music

I guess the "reason" I am so bad at music is because if I were any better I might have got sucked into it...

... especially in creator mode.

PS: also for graphics.

真係得㗎？

我記得公司指引係唔可以送禮俾政府人員嘅

可能美國總統有 immunity 啦

The Future comes first

This is just a note to self, given the time-limited access to the content.

In the documentary "The Rememberer" (episode 2), Matías De Stefano explains the 3-tiered concentric circles of Atlantis.  The inner-most circle represents the future. The future was created first, because in the universe everything was first an intention. The middle represents the experience of the present. The outer circle represents the past. The future created the present so that we live out the past.

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The idea is fascinating.

The analogy even works from a geometrical perspective.

The future is the focal point, and of course the only reason why it's there is because of the intention for it to be. 

The future created by true intent is certain. Fittingly represented by the single focal point of a circle.

The present as experienced is quite uncertain. We do not know where we are. We are anywhere in the circle. "self-locating uncertainty" is the name of the game.

The past is where the wild hallucinations reside. Anything could have been in our past. There is no way to know, but we often guess. It's why people argue endlessly about what actually happened in the past. Most do not realize the past is just an hallucination. It's the stuff outside the circle of uncertainty of present.

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Curiously this answers the question I wrote down a couple days ago:

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This might sound counterintuitive but i find it much harder to deconstruct the past than the future. It feels like the past is truly gone and one can never go back there, so whatever happened has an effect so far as it affects the present only. And since we can choose our present the effect of the past can be very minimal

But the future is much harder to deconstruct. It feels like it is coming. We know it. Ironically, it is the past that teaches us about the future. But we know by the late nighters that we pulled and crucially the ones that we didn’t that tomorrow will come and if we are unprepared for it we will suffer the consequences.

Deconstructing the past made us much freer. Why could we not do the same for the future? What promises does it hold? It must hold great freedom by logic of symmetry. But I have not cracked open the puzzle yet.

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Crazy.

Qwen3-30B-A3B-Instruct

A couple weeks ago I wrote a "llm_grep" script that basically asks an LLM to grep something. For this script to be useful in a broad context, ideally you'd want the model to be a local one, otherwise who knows what weird stuff you'd accidentally send out as training data to LLM providers...

So I tried it with a bunch of small-ish local models, but they didn't quite work.  (TODO: point to the test prompt files)

Until Qwen released Qwen3-30B-A3B-Instruct.

This model is great. Long context, fast, and generally performant.

It might become my go-to model replacing Gemma-3-27B