interaction

free will dictates that the only interactions you get are the ones you consented with.

r00t

"The system is unhackable. If you are not love you do not get root level access."

prediction

"there is no way to (accurately) predict a singular event. if we can do that, time wouldn't exist."

and it's actually quite true that in deterministic models, time as an experience really does not exist. we can of course manifest deterministic models, but we'd be outside of its timeline.

grace

Whatever we do, the universe dances in complement.

Those who know no equality, see it as compulsion and call it law.

Those who know no love, see it as fate and call it determinism.

But I see grace. This is what we willed.

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自由、平等、博愛

其實係同一樣嘢嚟

WA2

Ani-one 喺聖誔不斷喺 youtube 播 White Album 2

再「認真」睇返次，個故事真係痴撚線。 

somehow 每個情節都有好強烈嘅既視感...

我只能夠話劇情真係神妙，將個 train wreck 設計到咁靚。

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我只能夠講男主欠少少先知力，俾著我就唔會犯埋啲咁嘅錯。

應該。

不過親身試過呢啲可以預見嘅 train wreck 都避唔開嘅我自己，又真係冇咩資格講咁多。

意識到火星撞地球一刻

我回帶翻睇先明。女人呢家嘢⋯

to train wreck or not to train wreck, that is the question 諗足30分鐘

年輕人嘅自信

我諗係自從炒過車之後，我先學識坦誠。radical 嗰種。

the structure of pain

(written Oct 2024)

a hypothesis

how do we make pain feel real in a simulation?

at first it doesn’t feel like anything 

but if the system causes the simulated character to scream and cry involuntarily when they are hurt, and if the system causes them to involuntarily lose mobility, squirm and twitch when hurt, then i suspect after a couple rounds of such experiences, the pain would feel more real.

one must have had played a rpg game to appreciate that. sometimes when something undesirable happens to your character, you might feel “ouch” even if there is no physical pain. it’s as if there was some kind of mental pain that was triggered though slight.

but the effect is real. the effect is only subtle because the immersion is incomplete and we still have our normal senses outside of the game. but once we identify with the character in a more immersive simulation i predict the pain will become more real.

medically we already know that pain is not only physical but also in our minds. it can be evidence that is is not a “physically real” phenomenon though i am not yet convicted of this conclusion yet, just a possibility. i think more likely is that we can create sensations of real pain once we have a full immersion simulation and we map our senses into a simulated character with 99% accuracy (ie the simulated character and real person will have their senses matched 99%), then we can probably create real sensations of pain even though the real person’s body is not harmed. we already know that phantom pain (for lost limbs) exist and there’s no reason why we can’t create phantom pain with simulated technologies 

once we believe pain is “real”, we have fear. we are then locked in.

this might be why babies cry so much. the pain must feel real to make the simulation feel real. the involuntary crying even to the extent of risking the baby’s own suffocation is the thing that tells the mind this thing is real. this is a lock-in process. we learn to avoid pain. the higher mind is synchoronized with the human brain so it too learns to avoid pain. this avoidance is part of what constitutes fear. fear locks us in.

i never doubted that feelings are real. even if we are in a simulated world. subjective feelings are real because we believe in them. whatever we believe is real is real.

that said, i always wanted to know : why is pain painful? what is it that makes us avoid it (generally)? why don’t i just hurt myself? it must be because i learned that it is a bad thing. but why? the subjective feeling exists, but why is that feeling bad? are there inherently bad feelings that we know the first day we are born? maybe. but it’s hard to experiment on that.

one hypothesis i strongly suspect to be true is that we learned by observing our own involuntary responses to pain. we cry. we feel paralyzed, we reflectively avoid contact with the painful areas, and we feel nervous signals pulsing at the painful parts. they’re obnoxious and they make it clear something is wrong . we don’t like that feeling because of the involuntary responses, and we want to avoid that. we internalize that sensation as “pain”.

This is so9sad...